This is going to be interesting...

     I added a new addition to my family yesterday since I finally got my tax return (which is already gone by the way...ugh...I hate being responsible with my money :-/). His name is Dash, and he is VERY feisty. I can see I am going to have my hands full teaching him biting is NOT okay, as well as training to use his litter box to GO in rather than sleep in.
   

   
     He's definitely cute whilst sleeping, but once he wakes up he becomes quite the terror. I'm sure he and I will learn plenty about each other over time, until then, trial and error is our game! (Dunno how long I can handle him tearing my skin open though...)

What do you do when you fall off the horse?

     Lately, I've been slacking on quite a few things. I'm working on improving myself and my lifestyle...most importantly I'm attempting to change an entire way of thinking that has plagued me for years. I tend to think the worst of every single situation I'm presented with. I'm an extreme pessimist, and even in the best of times, I can always seem to find the bad. I've finally decided to stop talking about change, but actually implementing it.
   
     I've started by getting out a little more. Going out with friends on the weekends or going on dates. I've also decided to put my bedroom through hell by tearing everything apart, getting rid of things, and overall, just making it look like new. The process has been very slow going, and very, very stressful, but it's finally looking like it's getting somewhere. Maybe in a later post, when it's finally completed, I will post before and after pictures ;-).
   
     I wanted to thank all of the friends who have been there for me through the tough times I've faced, not only recently, but long since past as well. Your support is the reason I am here today, the reason I am doing so well, and the reason I strive to better myself. I know I have been tough to handle, and I know there have been times you've all wanted to throw up your hands in defeat, but thank you for sticking it out and being there for me 'til the 'end'.

A New Found Passion

     I've recently made a friend who I've quickly become quite close with. He's a great guy and extremely talented. I was privileged enough to be shown many of his various talents first hand. One of which, I've grown very fond of: Photography.
     Dave and I went out to Utah lake yesterday (Sunday I meant, since I began writing this post Monday) so I could use his fancy camera and he could prove to me that I've got more talent than I give myself credit for.

IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!

     

     On a normal day when I am coming down to the lake, it is whilst driving a big white van so the girls inside it can have a look as we drive by. As I drive, I find myself wishing I was the one in the back so that, just once, I could look at everything else.  Not only was I NOT the driver on Sunday, but I also got to get out and walk around and attempt to capture the beauty that I saw. 

     I was able to see things I would NEVER have seen from the street, let alone whilst driving.

     Not only was I able to relax and just have fun, but Dave also gave me some pointers, since he himself is a photographer. I loved being able to learn something new, have fun, and above all just 'chill' with a friend. It's nice to be able to go out, outside of work of course, and experiment a little with new things.

Thanks for a great time and for showing me something I could be good at

Blog Changes

     Due to a few recent emails *rolls eyes* I'll be taking a few of my blog posts (quite a few) off of my blog. I'll try and keep as many on as possible, but who knows! Hopefully I'll be able to keep up writing to make up for the losses.

Off-Roading 2010

     I was able to hang out with a friend this winter who took me off-roading up Soldiers Hollow. We were able to go to a few other places like Little Moab and up past Tooele but both those times it was too dark for any pictures. If we go up again I'll make sure it's in the day time!

     Going off-roading has made me wish my car had four wheel drive! It is SO much fun! I wish more of my friends were into off-roading and rock crawling, I'd be out doing it alllllllll the time!

Hiking 2010!

     I discovered last year, as in a few months ago, that I quite enjoy a nice hike. I wasn't able to go much, but the times I DID go, were SO fun! I took quite a lot of pictures of myself. I suppose I needed some proof that I had indeed gone hiking...lol...I'm still trying to convince myself that it's real since I never thought I'd enjoy something like this. I can't wait to go more often this coming year. I'm sure quite a few blog posts will be filled with awesome hiking pictures!

A New Year - A New Beginning

     As some, or all of you may know, Ali and I are no longer together. It's a long story as to why, and there were a lot of hurt feelings on both ends, but what's done is done, and we both have to live with our decisions, especially me. As I struggle to get used to being single again after so long, I've been doing a lot of thinking about the different things going on in my life.
     I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of, but in thinking of what I've done that isn't so great, I've realized I haven't done a whole lot that IS. I haven't done a whole lot PERIOD. Sure, I've traveled to a couple new countries. I've flown to new places, but honestly, I didn't get to do some of the things I now wish I could have. If I could change things, I'd have made layovers longer so I could explore a little bit. I'd have planned more so that I'd have more money to just play with. I wish I had done so much more when I went to Australia. I had lots of fun in Canada, but wish I had done more on the layovers getting there.
     I suppose my point is that I'm done. I'm done with worrying about everything and everyone around me. I want to have fun with my life. I want to do whatever the heck I want and not have to worry about what a significant other might think about it. I miss Ali, but I think I need to finally just give up on it and move on with my life since its obvious he wants nothing to do with me.
     I'm going to try and blog more, maybe since I plan to do a lot more I'll have stuff to talk about! At the very least, I'll have lots of new pictures to post and lots of new experiences.

Thanks to everyone who's stood by me through all the hard times. You can never know just how much it has meant to me.