Mixed Emotions

     As some of you may know, I recently returned from a vacation to Canada where I visited Ali. I had such a wonderful time. It was by far the best week of my life, but also the worst. Being with Ali was amazing. We had so much fun, and so many laughs. We went to Wonderland, where I got to scream my butt off, and laugh at him screaming HIS butt off :-D. I watched him get SOAKED on the water rides we went on, and laughed at him complaining about how his hair was now ruined (pfft...men ;-)). We went out on numerous dates, some of which were just fun, and some of which were filled with romance.
     As much fun as I was having, I couldnt stop myself from thinking that in only a few days I would have to say goodbye and not see Ali again for 6 months. That thought was so heartbreaking, and nothing could make me feel better about it. On the day I left, however, Ali came to my hotel early to help me pack up, and then we went to the airport together. We had some lunch, and held each other with vice grips. I didn't want to let go, and I knew he didn't either. I was scared of how unsure everything was, how unsure our future was, and scared that I'd never see him again. I assume he was feeling the same, because that was when he put the ring on my finger :-D. He assured me this was not the end and that this was his promise to me that we would be together again. That was the best, and worst, day of my life.
     Now, a week later, he's getting ready to leave for Iran with his family. He'll be gone until mid-August, and there's a chance we will not be able to talk at all while he's there. As his future wife, I sit here terrified that he won't come back. That he'll crash on the way there or back, or that his parents will try and keep him there, or that a huge bombing will take place and I'll never see him again. There is nothing that can ease these fears until I know he's safe back here where he belongs. The one thing that offers comfort is knowing that there's a reason things have happened the way they are, and I know God is watching over us. All I can do is offer everything I have, and a simple prayer to Him that He will bring my Ali back to me safe and sound.